Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I hate my brain injury!

I was having such a good week and now I feel crappy. Why can't everyone just leave me alone and let me do my work? Do not write me long, complaining emails about brief conversations about which I have no memory.

I am not a bad teacher even though sometimes I lose things or plan on the spot. I can improvise because I know the topics inside and out. Leave me alone or better yet just come up and watch. My door is always open and a piece of paper ain't gonna tell you what I taught. I have been driving off road for the last 18 years. There is no map for it.

I wanted to go to my studio to work on my art today but the emails were too time consuming and enervating. But check out the piece I am working on. It's not done but it is part of my "World at my feet" series. I think I will call it "If he were meant to fly..."

8 comments:

Shayne said...

Cheer up! When I suffered my stroke,the frustration of my memory loss was was almost too much to bear. But now I've learned to use it to my advantage and my world is far less complicated now.

Shayne said...

Of course, I still can't find my car keys.

Allison Guerriero said...

You have my sympathy!! I have had a lot of unnecessary arrgivation and frustration in my life latey...just let yourself be grouchy and vent if you need to. Sometimes that is all it takes...

Aly V said...

Thanks for letting me vent and for listening. I don't really hate it. Since my stroke, even though I am slower, more forgetful, tired, and inefficient, I am more sensitive and I am learning to be more in touch with my feelings. I didn't have a lot of motivation to change until I could no longer control my worst traits. No I am working to undo the damage. The next day my boss praised me for the progress I made in restraint and professionalism. Suck it up and deal works, I guess.

BrokenBrilliant said...

I hate mine, too! It just sucks to have things work differently, sometime!

In the past four years, since my last injury (I fell down some stairs and smashed the back of my head on 3-4 steps), I've parted ways with a lot of one-time friends, and I've quit writing/answering a lot of emails because I just get too turned around and say things I didn't mean to say.

Oh, well. Things do get better over time... Or we get used to how they are!

Hang in there
BB

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Allison Guerriero said...

Yes suck it up and deal definitely works, Al! And I'm glad your boss praised your efforts. You're so good at your job, but even the best have a bad day. Everybody gets impulsive, especially with so much aggrivation, so I prasie you on your restraint as well. Plus when I was teaching I remmeber very well how nit-picky some of the parents and other teachers were...which is why I am no longer teaching. You put up with a lot of bullshit, don't you?

thisgirlsjourney said...

Hi, I just found your blog and I remember feeling like you did in this post when I was still working.... I used to be so annoyed with silly interuptions and people who took too long on the phone with me! It was so nice to be able to take time off and get away from it. Being able to scream and swear a bit in private without anyone knowing helps I think! :-)